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남자 셋이 술 먹으면서 무슨 얘기해?

백일성

퇴근하는 길 동네 후배에게서 술 한잔하자는 연락을 받고 약속을 정했습니다. 그리고 조금 늦게 동네 선배에게도 퇴근하는 대로 전화 달라고 문자를 보냈습니다. 아내와도 통화하고 저녁 8시 정도에 후배와 마주 앉아 소주 한 잔을 입에 넣었습니다. 정확한 시간은 모르겠고 12시 정도쯤 집에 도착한 거 같습니다. 아내가 자리에 금방 누웠는지 인기척에 바로 일어나 눈살을 찌푸리면서 묻습니다. “동네에서 간단하게 먹고 들어온다며? 몇 시야? 도대체 남자 셋이 무슨 얘기가 그렇게 재밌어서 이 시간까지 술을 먹어? 무슨 얘기해?” 여자 셋이 모이면 무슨 얘기하는지 모르겠지만, 30대 초반, 40대 초반, 40대 중반 이런 동네 선후배 남자 셋이 모이면 이런 얘기합니다.

소주 한 병. “요즘 직장 어때요?” “뭐 그렇지~ 넌?” “저도 죽을 맛이죠 뭐.” “술맛 떨어진다! 직장 얘기 그만~” “안주 나오기 전에 한 잔 하시죠.”

소주 두 병. 선배 형님이 늦게 도착했습니다. “늦었네요. 요즘 회사 바빠요?” 선배 형이 소주 한 잔을 비우며 말합니다. “야 술맛 떨어진다 말도 꺼내지 마라.” “안주 드세요.”

소주 세 병. “저 양반 나오면 될까?” “단일화가 문제지.” “누가 되던 그놈이 그놈이지.” “야, 술맛 떨어진다! 정치 얘기 그만~” “안주 하나 더 시키죠.”

소주 네 병. “요즘 씨스타가 대세죠?” “이 형이 카라, 미스터 이후 첨으로 인기가요를 보잖냐. 걔들 때문에.” “저도요, ㅎ” “형님들 뮤직비디오 전송해 드릴까요?” “야, 술맛 난다.” “아줌마 안주 시킨 지가 언젠데~”

소주 다섯 병. 여기서부터는 가물가물 언뜻 생각나는 단어들만 나열합니다. [박지성… .Q뭐?… QPM… 그건 투피엠이고 QPR.… 아… 박주영… 고등학교 때 패싸움이… 첫사랑… 너 몇 사단?… 훈련병 때… 와… 뭐… 야… 거… 내가 진짜… 우아…]

소주 여섯 병. “형이 로또만 되면 말이다….”

붉어진 얼굴로 술집을 나와 걸어가는데 길거리 한복판에 인형 좌판이 벌어졌습니다. 당나귀 인형 대여섯 마리가 요란한 소리를 내며 길거리를 누비고 있습니다. 선배가 후배 녀석에게 아이 갖다 주라며 한 마리 골라 보라고 합니다. 길거리 좌판 앞에 술 취한 아저씨 셋이 앉았습니다. 30대 초반의 갓 돌 지난 아이의 아빠는 요즘 전셋값 때문에 걱정입니다. 한없이 올라간 전셋값에 가을에 이사를 결정했나 봅니다. 한마디 합니다. “아저씨 당나귀 말고 기린으로 주세요.” 40대 초반의 중학생 남매를 키우고 있는 아저씨는 서랍에 사표가 넣어져 있습니다. 10년 다닌 회사를 그만두려고 합니다. 하지만 일년째 서랍 안에 있습니다. 한마디 합니다. “야, 당나귀가 더 이뻐~~” 40대 중반의 고3 딸 아빠는 얼마 전 아버님이 폐암 수술을 받으셨습니다. 오늘도 그의 지갑에는 로또가 있습니다. 한마디 합니다. “아저씨~ 건전지 서비스로 한 개만 더 줘요.”

아내가 재차 묻습니다. “남자 셋이 뭔 얘기를 하냐니까?” 이불 안에서 웅얼거리듯 대답했습니다. “씨….” “뭐?”  아내가 재차 묻습니다. “씨… 스… 타.” 이불 밖으로 내밀렸습니다. 이런~~~

 

올해 마흔두 살의 백일성님은 동갑내기 아내와 중학생 남매 그리고 부모님과 함께 살고 있는 평범한 가장입니다. 인터넷 포털사이트 다음 아고라 이야기 방에 ‘나야나’라는 필명으로 살아가는 이야기를 남기고 있으며, 수필집 <나야나 가족 만만세>를 출간한 바 있습니다.

To Know The World Is One

There is one world, but it is seen in millions of different ways because there are millions of different human minds. Born as the child, the offspring, of incomplete people, man takes pictures of things in the complete world through his eyes, nose, ears, mouth and body, and stores them inside his mind. This mind world, which overlaps the real world, is man-made and a duplicate. Inside this illusionary world, man lives making ever more illusions. The Bible tells us, “blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven”, which means heaven that is the true world will become one’s own when he discards his false mind completely. The phrase “cleanse or empty one’s mind” means one should discard and destroy this false mind, which has turned its back on the origin and is an enemy of the world. Because this mind is egotistical, narrow-minded and self-centered, it has discriminations, judgments of right and wrong, likes and dislikes, life and death, enemies and lovers, and distinctions between what does and does not belong to it.

 

Because pictures, the false mind, live as the master, man is born as the child of falseness, lives in a world of falseness and then passes on to a non-existing false world. It is the reason he ends up dying. For man to become complete he must discard the false world; he must discard the Earth, moon, stars and sun of this world; and he must discard even the materials in the air. What then remains is the place of the Creator, God and Buddha. This place is the origin, and from this viewpoint it is always this place, the original foundation, regardless of whether the creations of the world exist. From man’s perspective however, the world is a place with countless different things because his mind is not one with the world. When the world is seen from the place of the origin and source, it is one. It is one when nothing in the world exists, and even when they do exist, it is still one. Only a person who has returned to the origin and become the true mind can know this.

 

 

Woo Myung founded Maum Meditation. For his outstanding dedication to the service of humanity, he was awarded the Mahatma Gandhi Peace Award by the United Nations International Association of Educators for World Peace (IAEWP). He is the author of numerous books including World Beyond World, The Way To Become A Person In Heaven While Living, Nature’s Flow, Mind and Stop Living In This Land, Go To The Everlasting World Of Happiness, Live There Forever which have been published in English. His other books, Heaven’s Formula For Saving The World, The Living Eternal World, The Book Of Wisdom, and The Enlightened World are in the process of being translated into English as well as Chinese, French, German, Italian, Japanese, Portuguese, Spanish and Swedish.

Dentist Yoon Jin Young

The dream of Yoon Jin Young was to live the “free life”. She believed that if she became a career woman, like she saw portrayed in the media, she would become free. So she studied to be a dentist and gained people’s respect for being involved in academic activities and volunteer work. Somewhere along the way her mind, weighed down by the burdens of work and life, became unendurable, like a heavy weight on her shoulders.

As she threw away her mind she came to realize that the real freedom comes when that “self” that was in pursuit of success, happiness and enjoyment is no longer present. Now, after doing Maum Meditation, she greets her patient everyday with happiness and enjoyment, just as she used to do when she opened her office ten years ago. This is her story of throwing away the mind.

I am an orthodontist, and it has been ten years since I opened my clinic. Scattered around the clinic there are paintings and dolls that are presents from my patients. It usually takes two to three years to complete an orthodontic program, so the patients become like family. Over time though, I grew to feel like I was literally suffocating in the office, and I always wanted to escape from there. Now, this place feels so precious to me and I am truly grateful to be here.

Growing up I was the eldest of three daughters. My father ran his own business, but due to the uncertainty in it we were constantly caught up in insecurity. It was worse for me because as the eldest daughter I felt a sense of responsibility towards the family, yet I didn’t like this “self” that had to face reality. I often couldn’t go to school because I was weak, so from a young age I had felt that life was truly futile. Living was not fun for me because I had the thought that I couldn’t accomplish anything at all. All the other people seemed to live happily; why not me? How could I manage to live this life? I was always concerned about this. Actually, I went into dentistry to escape this futility, and I wanted to live more realistically. I thought it would be fun to have the life of a career woman like those I saw on television.

But it turned out that dentistry was not what I was interested in. Most of all, the classes were rather tough due to all the competition between students. Besides that, what the future held for me was far away from what I had dreamed of. What I longed for was to enjoy the whole wide world, which I couldn’t do with this job. I literally felt suffocated because I had to stay inside that tiny little clinic all day long.

In my fourth year, just before graduation, my instructor suggested I study orthodontics at the orthodontic research institute. Somehow I sensed that this was what I was looking for. I had a complex about smiling brightly during my childhood because my teeth were irregular. Since I had once been a patient who benefited from braces, I felt that I could do many things for my patients. Moreover, there were lots of opportunities to go overseas for further study in, for example, academic exchange seminars; and I also had the opportunity to be a volunteer in programs that shared those techniques with dentists in China and Central Asia. Because I was actually thirsty for knowledge I went everywhere there was a chance to learn more.

Finally, at the age of 29, I opened my dental clinic in 2002. During the treatments to straighten their teeth, pessimistic patients would become brighter; and some became happier after getting successful jobs. It really was a worthwhile job for me. Over the next couple of years more and more patients came to my clinic; plus, I continued my overseas activities. Although my reputation grew bigger and bigger, I felt like there was a heavy load bearing down on my shoulders. It just felt as if there were heavy metal chains wrapped around me; and my mind was always burdened, uncomfortable and I always felt as if there was something chasing me.

I didn’t regard it as a big deal at first because there were many responsibilities thrust on me in running the clinic. But about the time I was becoming both mentally and physically exhausted Maum Meditation came into my life. By chance I met a lady at a self development seminar who told me about Maum Meditation. I wanted to take a break from the utter exhaustion I was going through, so I visited the local center in my town.

While meditating I came to see myself. I saw that I had thought that if I were not busy 24 hours a day I would fall behind or have troubling difficulties. Also, I had been obsessed with learning more. In order to involve myself in as many overseas activities as possible I needed to be healthy and good at languages. But because I was congenitally weak to begin with I strained my body and was ruining it. I had been pushing myself too hard, so while meditating my body felt painful all over.

As I continued to meditate those harsh memories grew dim and my body started to feel comfortable. I started meditating even harder because I could feel that this was something I had to do; that this was the only way I could find the answers to life. At some point I became so comfortable and was surprised to feel those heavy chains loosen, unwind and drop off me.

I really wanted to live with freedom. But now, from the viewpoint of the universe, I could see the life I had been living; struggling to live while trapped inside the narrow consciousness that was “myself”. I had thought I must be happy, I must be free, I must earn a lot of money, I must have a great reputation… It was this “self” that had actually fettered my freedom. While throwing away the mind I came to know that I am the world, and the world itself is freedom when the self does not exist. Before I thought that freedom meant to buy what I wanted to buy and go where I wanted to go; but real freedom existed when I did not exist.

From then on freedom and happiness surged up from deep within my mind, even though I had been treating patients all day long at the clinic. This feeling grew even stronger the more I threw away the mind of the “myself” that I had thought was me, minds like pride, fame, greed, and so on. It was just like a true miracle!

In short, if, as suggested in Maum Meditation, you live with the “universe mind” by throwing away the “self” which lived with the human mind, you will naturally, with the world’s mind, accept and embrace others, no matter who you are with or what conditions occur in your life.